Back home after a long day in hospital. Tired, but calm. We don’t have a date for the biopsy yet, but they explained the risks and the procedure. I did some tests, blood was taken AGAIN, bloodpressure, all that stuff to make sure I’m fit to have surgery. And I am. At my own request I was allowed to see the scan. I wanted to see the tumor. I wanted to see what we’re dealing with.
That was my only ‘holy shit’ moment of that visit. It’s big. So it took some effort to return to faith. But I do trust the doctors. They obviously know what they are doing. I’m also extremely proud of Peter. He asked some valid questions and the answers showed their confidence and competence. I really feel I’m in good hands.
The scan of the brain kinda looks like a happy face with a big birthmark, but I realize it can also be very confronting, so that’s why I didn’t put it up.
It may sound strange or weird to you, but this tumor is not the enemy to me. It wouldn’t surprise me if this tumor is what made it possible to channel…to interact with so called Higher Energies. And I’ve learned a lot from that interaction and I was able to help others. I don’t see it as something bad. It’s there for a reason. I’m not declaring war to it. I’m now in the process of getting to know it. I’ve seen it. I know it’s size. Now I need to find out its character. I don’t want to turn this into a battle.
Thanks for your support. I could feel it today xxxx
keep this energie xx
En in dit proces help je mensen ook. Door de manier waarop je hier mee om gaat, door je kijk, je niet-strijden.
Je bent en blijft een grote inspirator.
Fijn dat ik je ken. <3
Dat is wederzijds, lieve Jose
Goed dat je alles hier op schrijft.
Voor jezelf maar ook voor ons nu kan ik je volgen zonder je “lastig” te vallen.
Ik denk aan je en stuur positieve energie .
Ik ken je niet goed maar ik weet zeker dat je het ontvangt.
Groeten Petra
Creating a place to channel thoughts and support is a great idea. I’ll check in on a regular basis, won’t always comment though, but be assured you’re always in my thoughts.
By the way, your view on your tumor does not sound weird to me. I -enditisletterlijk- felt a connection between your tumor and your ATWKT-muses. I’m having a lot of problems with your muses lately.
Thinking of you,